A Christmas Update

Merry, merry Xmas!!

Well, it's been some time since my last update. I'm nearing the end of my first rotation, and looking forward to some exciting things coming up! Next month I'll be heading to Bangalore, India, for the mega project I'm on, plus I'm raring to fight for my next rotation, be it in Shanghai or Saudi Arabia!

It seems time really flies when you're busy, and that's what I have been doing so far, keeping myself occupied with work, community service, and meeting up with friends. Work-wise, I have had some great opportunities come my way, such as taking over a project leadership role from my best bud Rich, who just returned to the States.

Will definitely miss him as a friend and a mentor...

Work life has been a blast for me so far. Every so often, there's something interesting brewing up. A couple of examples...

Brought a couple of Japanese colleagues out to Geylang for supper during company training!

Dressed up as Elvis in a very, very entertaining DnD 

Being part of the yearly stocktake @ raw materials warehouse

As usual, I have been whiling away free time on weekends with various community work groups, trying out everything from environmentalism to family service centers.

 @ Bottletree park doing farmwork and nature meditation with Ground-up Initiative

Bringing a lively family out to Jurong Birds Park for a Family Day treat

I am still searching for a 'sanctuary' where I'd feel that I truly belong. A cause that resonates with my beliefs, and calls me passionately to action. Still, I am enjoying every step of the journey, immersing myself within the different silos of society and understanding the world around me better, one experience at a time.

Being out of uni means extra effort to stay in touch with valued friends... and that's something I try to work on too.

Plus I have been hanging out with our camp rainbow group, who have been helping me out on many areas..
e.g. doing a looks makeover, having sleepovers @ mau's place, a batam trip etc..

And of course, in a two-weeks long trip to the US early this Sept, I squeezed in a couchsurfing trip in Chicago, attended GS' wedding as a groomsman, and even drove up near New York to my company's US Office to spend the day networking and exploring the facilities! Lemme see if I can work out a detailed post later on.

Regardless, the world didn't end on 21st Dec 2012, and life moves on as usual. I'm looking forward to fresh experiences, new insights and everything life has to offer next year.

Till then, it's Merry Christmas ~

“Christmas, my child, is love in action."

― Dale Evans Rogers

My First Month as a Saudi Govt Official

When, halfway through a company anti-bribery/corruption talk, the presenter comments that we are all Saudi arabian govt officials, I thought to myself, 'Shit just got serious'. Haha just kidding.

It's my first month in the ITEC program, and i'm getting into the heat of things, taking on project roles e,g, in a Bangalore project (going next month!), knowing the people and culture, and basically learning and growing every single day. I have been really lucky that the progam really delivers on what it promised, with investment in training, meaningful work experiences and more importantly, connecting me to a mentor, a program supervisor, and a assignment leader, all valuable ties to kickstart my developmental journey. Not forgetting, of course, that I had one-to-one chats with managers from IT, Finance, HR, even the ex-CIO.

It turned out that the program was inherited from GE, and I had Rich (from the US and program alumni) share with me about his journey and tips on moving forward. We talked about everything under the sun, from his experiences and advice to Singaporean culture. I like that he's so open about sharing, and manages to communicate everything in a crystal-clear way, be it a tutorial or an opinion - something I'd really need to learn! Right now he's probably lounging on a dreamlike beach resort somewhere with his friends in Phuket, enjoying a well-deserved break :)

Best Bud @ work!!

Work has been fun and stimulating so far, with varied projects across processes, IT infrastructure and project mgmt. I do a lot of self-initiating and planning, thinking about what resources and information I need, who to get it from, and how to leverage my connections... with generous hints from my mentor of course :) Oh and I've already started stressing about making a presentation to a bunch of IT managers next week! Haha.

On a lighter side, I thoroughly enjoy the myriad of org activities we've had, from lunch treats and townhalls down to our paintball teambuilding event today :) It really gets people bonded together and enjoying their work much, much more.

Once I've gotten a better grasp of the company culture, I'll write about it, and share about some of the most interesting moments i've had.

Meanwhile, it looks like being a Saudi govt official... ain't that bad after all :)

Philin' Good about e Philippines 2

It got too comfortable.

Us in Manila, lounging around in the house, eating family dinners, entertaining lil Sachi, watching the strangest reality tv shows.

Too cute!! No wonder we can't leave xD

And that's when you know it's time to go. So we went.

We took the night bus up to Tuguegarao, and crashed Uncle Freddy's place (and life). We went spelunking up at Callao Caves, then drove up to the northern coastal town of Aparri to catch the sunset along the sea. There we bunked in at Uncle Freddy's friend's home (who in the great fashion of filipino hospitality vacated his entire house for us to stay), bought fish from the local market and cooked it for a nice beer-and-dinner.

Midway we dropped by Aunt Naknak et al's farms, and had tons of fun in the 'shoes', i.e. barefeet of a wet rice farmer. We bathed naked in a passing river, planted a disarray of rice seedlings knee-deep in mud, harvested coconuts from a bat colony, ploughed through maize plantations, and, of course, i got thrown off a carabao. So what else is new?

This is a carabao...in case you were wondering.

The lowlands didn't satisfy our appetite for adventure. We bus-ed up and up long winding roads, across undulating hills and into the deep mountains. Banaue, a little village tucked neatly on a mountain where rows of rice terraces grew, with native bridges running across the river valley, tin-crusted houses hanging for dear life onto cliffsides, and a slow peaceful atmosphere to soothe our hearts.

It reminded me of Sapa, perhaps just without the ubiquitous ethnic tribal costumes. But you still fall in love with the town easily, and I regret not having the luxury to explore every nook and cranny of this rustic hamlet.

Ever had an entire town black out for the whole night, with a candle to keep us company? All it takes is to rain, and Banaue cuts off all electricity, blanketing the village in complete darkness while the moon hides behind mountain peaks.

Yet that was the most refreshing sleep I had for awhile, possibly due to the fresh air and quiet night.

When morning came, it was accompanied by the cacophony of a gazillion dogs, pigs and cockerels, ringing loud through the valley. We washed up and rode over to a nearby mountain, where we'd embark hours on foot, up into the clouds and then down towards the greatest of the UNESCO rice terraces, Batad.

No mean feat, btw. I'd advise good shoes, light baggage and a healthy heart. But it was well worth the hike.

A hidden emerald in the valley

Walking along the rice terraces, feeling the beads of richly yellow wheat, you can't help but feel that you don't love rice as much as it really deserves. Eons of carving steps and building mud foundations, just to grow little strips of rice and corn - food truly is the essence of life. Some of these villagers really have been living the same way their ancestors lived, with nary a modern comfort but the sole immersion in a life within a mountain valley...

We climbed across the terraces, for we searched for another famous hotspot - the Tappia Waterfall. Honestly, I never thought much of waterfalls. Seen a couple here and there in my travels, meh. But, no. This one really stunned me. It was so beautifully carved, right snuck above a field of rocks, and it begged to be swam to. Which is really dangerous due to the undercurrents, of course. Still, when we saw it roaring above our heads, we promptly stripped down and dived into the racing river, till we stood right in front of it, a torrential stream of water. A stream of beauty, actually.

Will post pics up from Karl. But we lounged lazily on the rocky riverbed before the time creeped on us - we had to get back to our initial hiking point in 2-3 hours to catch the tricycle back! And I acutely realized my lack of fitness as we did a more exhausting climb back to Batad, and then across the mountains again. Whew! 6-7 full hours of rough hiking got us really, really bushed by the end of the day. We retreated into a coach for a long overnight haul back down towards Manila.

I thought I'd really miss the serenity, the halcyon calm of these hidden hamlets. And I still do, badly, but two weeks had flown by, and we drew close to the end of our trip.

Though much of Luzon still remained unexplored, I think I'd satisfied my wanderlust for now! It has been a thoroughly refreshing trip of brand new experiences, and makes me count the Philippines as one of my fav in Southeast Asia now, alongside Vietnam. I'd love to come back again and enjoy the blend of nature and civilization, the rich culture, the great hospitability of the people...

What do you know? It's more fun in the Philippines! :)

Philin' Good about e Philippines

Back from the Philippines!!

Enjoying the hospitality of many Filipino families? Check.
Knees deep in mud planting rice in the fields? Check.
Getting thrown off a carabao onto the riverbed? Check.
Hiking hours across rice terraces and rocky rivers to swim to a waterfall? Check.
All in two weeks with $250, a backpack and an open heart!

I have to say, it has been a very, very unique backpacking trip this time round. Throughout the trip, i have been deeply immersed into local culture and hospitality, perhaps more than any other trip so far. I feel less like a passing visitor, and more like a guest family member. Recounting the trip, there has been a fair share of adventure and excitement, relaxation and fun. Enough memories to last me till the next time i visit Aunt Biki's side of the family in Davao, Mindanao!

After a couple of years traipsing through mostly developed terrain - Europe and U.S., and the rising economic powerhouse China, I had almost forgotten the chaos, the confusion of the developing world. Enter Manila, and it floods your senses with nostalgic turmoil. Your eyes, muddled from the dizzying crowds of people and traffic. Your ears, incessantly disturbed by noise, pure noise. Your nose, choked up from wisps of pollution and street food. Your skin, steadily irritated by the sun, the dirt, the anarchy.

Welcome back, I thought to myself with a smile.

But first, I pray I will not be kidnapped. Because now I wait at the airport exit, hour upon hour, for a man I have not met before in my life, nor barely know from the meager testimonials he has on CS. A man with whom I have planned to travel two weeks in the Philippines, and will be staying with tonight. No address, no contact number, not even a face! All I know is that he'll be wearing a white shirt and blue berms, and carrying a blue 60litre haversack.

Why, dear God, why must I do this to myself, as my head ached from my recent fever. Eleven pm in Manila and without a definite place to stay. 'Thrilla in Manila' indeed! Nothing but a risky plan and a hope, as always. Always the same hope, the same faith... in the magic of serendipitous encounters, the wondrous chaos of Life.

It paid off. I met Karl, his cousin Naknak picked us up to her house, where her whole family showed us great hospitality... and the rest, as they say, is history.

Our days in Manila, mired by the rain, still found us touring around the walled old ruins of Intramuros, shuffling between a dizzying array of public transport from jeepneys to MRT, and learning its rich history and culture through museums like Ayala and Rizal memorial.

My favourite part, our family excursions to Taal Volcano (a lake within a volcano within a lake - quite a mouthful I know) and Laguna's famous hot springs! Definitely must-visits for the entire family.

If there is one way to truly experience what's unique in an Asian culture, I now know it to be a live-in with a family, and engage fully in day-to-day activities and the occasional weekend excursion. I love the karaoke culture, the lovely spreads of picnic food, the thick extended family relations, the love for reality tv, etc etc...

And I suddenly remember my parents saying, 'Why don't you go with a tour group? You'll see all there is to see". They never get it haha. I don't travel to see. I don't travel to do. I only travel to feel, to learn... to live.

And finally i feel so much alive again.

Afterthoughts

Just one week away from my next travails, a backpacking trip across the Philippines! I'm traveling with new CS friend Karl, and we're doing something off-the-beaten track, with farmstays, free dives, and some good ol' spelunking!


Right after that in mid July, I'll be kickstarting my career in SABIC, the largest public company in Saudi Arabia and a diversified manufacturing powerhouse. The program was what really attracted me: a two-year leadership development program for IT professionals, and boasting a lot of investment. Four diverse rotations across entire IT functions and working on projects spanning the globe! And a 3-week training course in the Netherlands in Aug/Sept to boot!


Of course, it's a riskier move than some of my other offers, which have stronger brand reputations and offer better remuneration packages that'll probably appeal more to others. That aside, I'm thoroughly excited about the opportunities abound, and will be looking forward to learn and garner as much experience as possible, and meeting all the interesting people out there!


With income coming in, I met with Alan to look at insurance planning options and some of my priorities in life. Undoubtedly he's someone I trust very much and have a lot of respect for. And i feel that it's a huge element in choosing your agent; it's not really about the policy or company but about the sense of trust and protection, the intangibles and emotional aspect, that really counts in the life insurance industry. I am glad to have someone whom I have worked with closely and built up a relationship with to choose as an agent.

He mentioned a personal observation about me that was a particularly striking theme in my job search... that I was someone who's outwardly unambitious, but inwardly ambitious. I don't really agree with that inward part, but I'm sure that's how many people see me. When interviewers look at my resume and see the double firsts, the volunteer initiative, the leadership roles, they're thinking like this: One of those high-achieving guys. What's his sweet spot? What keeps him going? Ambition for power, achievement, etc?

And, possibly contrary to interview guides out there, I always answer the same thing.

To make change happen. To bring great ideas and innovation into reality. To push what I think makes a difference out into this world. And to me, it really doesn't matter if I benefit from it in any way. I remember saying, Don't expect me to compete with others (in the program) to get ahead. I'm not going to fight for attention or clamour for credit. I'm not going to enjoy the political game. Because I don't get driven by the thought of climbing for power or money. It really doesn't appeal to me at all. I don't get power for power's sake.

But empower me to learn, to think and to dream, to pitch my vision out to a listening audience, to source for resources and connections that'll make it possible, and to lead the team to drive it through and make it a goddamn success - that keeps me going.

In that sense, I'm not a very consistent performer. Times when the environment set me free, I flew. Times when I just got put down, I plummeted. Sometimes it's tough to get a great attitude going when things are against you. I'm still working on it, too. And i guess that's why it is so important to find a good fit of company and personal culture.

Personally it was a tough choice amidst all the corporate Kool-Aid. In the end I trusted in my UBS mentor's advice: 'Go West, young man.' Well, not exactly, but anyway...

Time to start earning my flying creds.

Pot of Gold at the End of the Rainbow

Camp Rainbow. Still my favourite volunteer experience.

It was a refreshingly new camp experience this time round, being in the youths category and taking care of the two most independent kids in camp. As (self-declared) part-time camp photographers, they rampaged about with giant DSLRs and snapped down some of the most unglam shots of us befrienders (myself included). I imagine they have enough material to run a blackmail syndicate. But anyway, my challenge was in keeping my reins to a bare minimum, looking after their health and safety while letting them loose with everything else.

I loved catching up with old friends and meeting new characters. My ex-kids group are just as fun and energetic as ever, though i wish they could cut down on the relentless poking of me and Luke haha. Belle and RJ grew up to the youth group too. Oh, and Gary was in the same group too, and it was nice getting to know him better. Longtime GLs Smurfette and CK had an opposite leadership style from Ben and Pohlin, which i thought worked well with the youths. And who could forget the bubbly doc n nurse pair, perhaps too bubbly... i couldn't differentiate them from the kids, really. Haha.

The youths were a great bunch of kids, from the more restrained but still funloving Ed & Jas, to my two kids and Ira, Sarah etc. It's interesting to see this mix of characters sleep and play together, and though i wish they'd break into cliques less, i think they were still pretty close together.

I like the rebellious nature of our grp, always being the late one and skipping official programmes. We're truly deserving of our grp name, Black Sheep... well, the blackest of sheep might have the purest of hearts! I like to think we injected some chaotic fun and laughter into the camp, haha. Our mascot was universally adored after all (might post up a pic soon).

I think this year's camp had some interesting programs, such as the visit to the zoo, the ducktour and the photobooth during Carnival night. But somehow it felt messier, logistics and coordination-wise. Afterwards i heard that there were some politics going on, and a divide between the comm and the GLs. This kinda reminds me of the challenges i faced during my time as FOC chair. To me, intuitively i knew everyone had to be on board to change things for the better. That was what i thought was my greatest challenge, forging a team of diverse characters and getting everyone to buy-in on the same vision. Hopefully next year's team can move on as one after some rumored reorganization going on.

Anyway, it was a great camp as usual and kudos to everyone involved for making it happen! Looking forward to upcoming outings and next year's camp alr. Not sure which age group to go for - I might say i enjoy the energy and closer interaction with younger kids, but i relish the autonomy and deeper conversations with youths too.

Either ways, here's to more years of some of the most fun and meaningful times in my life.

Sheeps in Wolves' Skins

They call it job searching, or job hunting.

I prefer the latter term, for its brutal, more accurate meaning. As i get more experience with interviews, i realize that sometimes, it's a zero sum game. Many firms out there have very limited hiring capacities, and when it comes to the hiring decision, it inevitably comes down to a competitive game of comparison.

And in group discussions/interviews, like with hunting, the alpha male stands out. Outspoken and aggressive, they stake the game out for their own and bare their wolfish fangs to frighten the competition. Well, perhaps not that graphic, but still. And when this behavior is rewarded, even encouraged, guess what happens? Especially among engineers, who aren't bred up to be wolves unlike, say, business graduates, it gets into a bad case of 'wolf vs wolf', where people speak up for the sake of speaking, hogging up all the air time. These people try hard to be who they are not, getting all nervous with their thoughts and actions, and contributing less meaningfully to the task at hand.

And somehow, I tend to find myself as the shepherd. Getting the group focused and back on track. "Keep your eyes on the goddamn sheep!" I say. Even if wolves do stand out, it doesn't mean you should just blindly gnash your teeth in the air. Show your mettle in your individual style. Calm down so you can perform like you should. We need an analytical person. We need a creative mind. We need a data guy, a details person. We need a team.

I really see they can be so much more than they are showing to the interviewers. It's just very sad that there isn't always a second chance for them, for us. And I get very indignant when I feel that candidates aren't treated fairly. For example, I'm not just an engineer, but I have a business background as well. And I think I should be subject to harsher standards of evaluation when it comes to presentations and group work. In fact, I have raised it up as part of my introduction speech sometimes.

At the same time, I'm not so nonchalent as to completely put my chances down. All I want is a level playing field, to show our strengths equally despite working on the same exercise. It's not an easy HR challenge, but that's the interesting part, isn't it, to solve tough problems like this?

I just feel that I badly want to take some time out, revamp these recruitment practices, and make it work like it should. Perhaps something like: List out equally important roles in advance with separate skillsets highlighted from the job, allow candidates to choose the ones they feel most comfortable with, and split into teams. In that way, they can see who's a really good wolf, shepherd, or sheep. Metaphors aside, it's not about which role you play, but how good you are at it. After all, the basic things are always the same.

Well, that's all for my rant. I am still trying to strike the balance of performing my very best in the interview, and making sure others do just as well. If this sounds crazy to you... it sounds crazy to me too haha.

Oh, and good news regarding my studies: I earned an A+ for my final year project! Which comes with this (anticlimax) statement from the school:

REMARK: YOU HAVE COMPLETED THE DEGREE OF BACHELOR OF BUSINESS WITH FIRST CLASS HONOURS. YOU HAVE COMPLETED THE DEGREE OF BACHELOR OF ENGINEERING (COMPUTER SCIENCE) WITH FIRST CLASS HONOURS 

Big thanks to all my professors and frens throughout these past four years.

Setting this aside, the next thing I'm looking forward to is Camp Rainbow 2012, coming up next weekend.

I'm still taking care of two kids, but this time round, the challenge has gone up 1529%... because they're the camp's notorious duo J & WH, naughtiest of them all!! I have to highlight this back to them, don't they realize I'm getting too old for this? Haha. Now these kids are the real wolves in sheepskin...

As for myself, I'll relish my role as shepherd for now... and leave exploring what's under my skin for later :)

Season Finale

Too long a hiatus from everything!

These past few weeks of free time have turned me into something between a bookworm and a hermit... spending my time on long walks and meditation, or poring into varied books and classics. Some of the great titles I liked: American classic "The Great Gatsby" where I empathized deeply with the main character, enigmatic "The Master of Go" (played out the game with the book), and casual read "The Idea of Perfection". I even had time for "the Hunger Games", but I found it, well, meh.

Since my birthday last week (Friday the 13th, terrific..), I have also set resolutions to lead a healthier lifestyle, trying to get habits going like a good ol' morning swim exercise or settling into bed early. 'Trying' is still an overstatement of my efforts though...haha.

Anyway, happy birthday to myself! It's a much more lonely occasion this year. I remember last year when the gang in Munich gave me a surprise celebration, with my most valued presents being a kimchi instant noodles from my korean frens...haha! Those were the halcyon days... the taste of European culture that will always stay with me.

Right now it's the last exam season for me and my cohort of frens. It brings back the memories of me, JY and Maran. We survived through countless challenges, poring over past exams in the 54 tv lounge, lamenting and laughing over our mistakes after every paper, celebrating at every occasion. I think of the times with Alvin and gang as well, with my best roomie locking my laptop away and protecting myself from it, haha. And the posters i put up around the block every exam season, to motivate everyone around me (to unknown effect).

Who'd have known that stressful times could be happy, as well?

More than just the exam season, these past four years have been the most memorable time of my life. A great developmental journey where I have laughed and cried, loved and hated, and lived and learned like never before. A time of venturing into unknown territories, throwing myself headlong into crazy adventures with some of the best people I have ever met.

Being block manager and knowing a hundred residents by name/ Serendipitous hall conversations deep into the night/ Organizing tons of events/ Fighting hard with the softball team /Training as a cheerleader / Building the FOC vision with the committee/ The longest days and nights during the camp itself/ Brawling with e rugby guys/ AD, AC, /... and that was just hall. 

In school it was like... Learning coding. Oh, the agony/ Riding with the wind on bikes/ Hours in the lab creating magic/ Trying startup competitions/ Groupwork with diverse characters/ Tough internships/ Doing events for Board games society, NBS exchange club/ Fishing at kelongs/ Exchange. Crazy, crazy exchange.     

This last season will be more lonely than usual. But somehow... images of these past four years seem to come alive, and surround me in comforting thoughts. The thought that time will pass, people will graduate, and friends may separate... But memories, memories are forever.

And suddenly I feel i am no longer alone.

Peace and Love, Reus

It's been a while, but i felt like digging up my diaries and journaling the rest of my Portugal-Spain trip, haha.

I arrived in Reus, a small rustic town off Barcelona. It's the birthplace of Gaudi, though i believe he was attracted more towards the big-city glamour of Barca!

Imagine my surprise when I was greeted by my host Blanca and her diving instructor David with a very hearty..."Selamat Datang!" Haha. Both of them are avid travelers too who've had their fair share of adventure in Asia, including a months-long biking trail across China! Definitely want to try that someday too, wow. 

We drove around for a bit, to return their diving equipment. Blanca has been taking diving lessons, to prep for her trip to Madagascar perhaps - she's going with some frens to volunteer and teach there for a year or so!! Along the way we even had a little accident with the local traffic police...but i can't really remember the details now haha.

Last stop for the night: home sweet home in Reus! Out of all the hosts I've had, Blanca had one of the most memorable homes. It was a small, cozy one-room place, intricately decorated with books, drawings, a plethora of stuff with a very personal feeling coming through - i could really begin to see what kind of person she was in the home she's built! 

I remember the little kitchen where there was barely room for two, and the fridge choke-full  of home-grown vegetables, from green pepper, chilli, onions and potatoes to carrots, long beans, tomatoes. Blanca actually tends to a small garden patch together with her other friends, and they just love harvesting them fresh for their meals. If you've never seen home-grown veggies btw, they look nothing like in the supermarkets! In fact i had a hard time identifying some of the veggies as they were in the oddest shapes and sizes.

Anyway I made dinner for us both, braised pork belly with green pepper, and vermicelli with carrots :-)

Yummy~ i hope!

 The next morning saw us taking a ride to nearby Tarragona, the capital of Catalonia with some very Romanesque ruins, from Cyclopean walls to an astounding amphitheatre!

 Managed to catch the weekly flea market by the Cathedral- an awesome experience! 

An amphitheatre by the sea - what an entertaining spectacle it must have been ~

We had a light breakfast, then snuck off for a long ride across the hilly roads of Tarragona, the scenery marred by industrial structures like power stations, processing plants. But the deeper we went into the mountains and valleys, the further we abandoned modern civilization ... until we reached the castled town of Montblanc, nestled away among the rocky Prades Mountains.

Our destination: to have a nice picnic at Blanca's frens Guillem and Cristina's house, which was still further hidden away in a nearby barren village! We first met up with her other frens Edgar and Eliz, and then shopped for groceries and lunch. Sadly Sunday is truly not a day for shopping, and only one muslim mom-and-pop store was open for us to grab some drinks and snacks.

Upon reaching Guillem's house, my eyes completely widened. Here we had a concrete blockish house that looked exactly like a hermit's adobe! Imagine it surrounded by spiny bushes, a reserve water pool, and no grid electricity or water supply - i can't imagine a closer reference to the olden times of Spain!

Reminded me of Heroes I's ogre adobe!!

If i were to choose one coolest place out of all my travels, this is it. 

Guillem, a DJ schooled in old-school traditions, housed hundreds of vinyl records and an inhouse music system in about one-third of the adobe. The other two-thirds comprised of a counter bar where flies buzzed about in the hot, dry air and cushy sofas to lounge in. We had live DJ music on his scratch pad (which Guillem taught me to experiment on - really really fun stuff to try!), and later more of their frens came to join in the picnic. Absolutely memorable sights, sounds and smells that are still coming back to me now!

Oh, something i forgot to add: besides Blanca and Edgar, none of their frens spoke english. Everyone was speaking Catalonian most of the time :)  Talk about non-verbal communication! Haha. I'm amazed i still managed to fit in somehow, as we lazed and chilled in the fun picnic atmosphere.

As evening approached, we took a quick tour around Montblanc, climbing up the old Roman fort walls. There, the setting sun cast our shadows across the town beneath, and the breeze and the bronze light cast a warm feeling in our hearts...

I guess this was the time when it struck me... that Life is long, and meant to be enjoyed, every single moment of it. To me Blanca embodied this life philosophy perfectly, in living life to the fullest yet with the deepest sense of hope, faith and love that it does not end tomorrow, but will go on forever. How vast, varied and interesting life can be! You can be anyone you want, do anything you love, and not feel the least bit of regret about it.

Yes, it was then that I felt my perspective on life has truly opened up for me, telling me that I can live life the way I want, not the way society dictates. I can lead different lifestyles and assimilate different cultures, i can explore many options on the places i'll go, the things i can do. I can slack like a bum or overwork for a cause. I can fail, cry, laugh, hug, inspire, pause, learn, read, play, go broke, seek help, volunteer ... and find fulfillment and happiness in my own life anyway.

Because Life is long, and meant to be good.

She has never voiced this out, and in fact we have never communicated that well in the sense of words and sentences due to her still learning english. But i could intimately feel her way of thinking, her way of life. It felt so deeply touching, and yet so comforting, to listen to her share her thoughts and experiences as though they were the most common thing in the world, when in fact it is so, so rare especially in this modern age of material greed and egotistic self-pursuit, a global village of disconnected individuals, a world where, so they say, Life is short.

Blanca, means white in Spanish. 

To me, she had truly brought the colour into my life perspective, like the brightness among darkness; an undying hope for a better life, a better world.

As I snuggled into the mat on the last night of my brief, yet life-changing trip in Reus, i was probably thinking...

Me siento agradecido por el regalo, Blanca.

A Comment

Kind words never fail to make me smile :)

From SG Cares' Alan:

Dear Sebastian, Thank You, NTU Student volunteers for the App.  

V aluable is the work you do, 

O utstanding in how you always come through. 

L oyal, sincere and full of good cheer, 

U ntiring in your efforts throughout the year. 

N otable are the contributions you make, 

T rustworthy in every project you take. 

E ager to reach your every goal, 

E ffective in the way you fulfill your role. 

R eady with a smile like a shining star, 

S pecial and wonderful - that’s what you are!

A long day (and night of volunteering)

Yawn... just woke up after one long, sleepless night up improving the mobile volunteering app, then one straight, tiring day volunteering at Highpoint Community Services.

It's surprisingly refreshing to go down to the ground and get our knees dirty in helping for a good cause! I had an interesting 'job rotation' as I carried sacks of rice with Meesala (an Indian MBA getting a job here), packed food with VL Jiaqi for homes of the elderly, being sent on a 'learning excursion' delivery route in a van with Ho Fai and Uncle Richard, and finally learning about high fashion while arranging old clothes with Anne. Along the way, I had a fun break drinking some weird ass drink some company donated crates of (for good reason i'm sure...) with Uncle Bernard, a 60 or 70-ish teacher who shared a couple of years of his life story and almost began proselytizing to me before i escaped =p.

I couldn't help smiling when I was doing some of the menial labour... guess I have a couple of bolts loose somewhere haha. I just felt a 'feel-good' sensation - and i guess it's the thing that keeps me going thru my past leadership experiences as well. Working for the sake of others cleanses the soul... it validates our common existence in this world of ours and makes you feel like you've gotten just a little closer to all the mass of human beings out there trying to eke out a meager living. It makes you feel alive - yes, for only when you are truly alive, do you think and care for others, do you share your love for the world. Otherwise, what differentiates you from a moving object, a machine?

It was invigorating, too, to get to share some of my thoughts and experiences with a common soul Ho Fai, whom I shared an hour or so on the delivery route! We really poured our hearts out, talking about our dreams and aspirations, our life stories that built us up. Amazing how a great connection just sparks like that, simply by being open to making new friends.

Ah well... I almost forgot my original purpose, to get more feedback for the mobile app! Still thinking about how to make it more engaging, more attractive towards users. How should we go about making people volunteer more? What makes people volunteer, and what makes them not volunteer? Will they do it if it's fun? If it's with friends? If they got recognition or rewards?

These are some of the questions i have been throwing around recently, to understand the real problem i'm trying to solve. It's not about thinking of what the app can do, but rather what people need or want. And there's no simple answer to this, so all i can do is to keep digging and digging, probing people, asking questions.

But truly, thanks to this project, I have gotten to thinking and learning a lot in more than one way. I like the new experiences i've been getting recently too. Even though there is much that doesn't excite me anymore, there is still a great part of the unexplored world out there for me to venture into.

After all, all we want is a reason to live.

One Night in Beijing, Two in Shanghai

Back from a grueling winter in Beijing and Shanghai, China! Pictures here.

I spent Christmas snuggled under the sheets, feverish and sneezing from a cold in the hotel. Not very merry indeed. And New Year's Day saw me climbing the Great Wall and leaving a trail of snot...haha.

I really loved the Great Wall though, it left me the same feeling as the Grand Canyon... 'Wow.' I must go back sometime and take a few days to walk and camp through the Wall...hmm is that allowed? They don't have patrols at night do they...

I feel like I still barely know China after having toured around the Jiang nan area. We were brought about to skim the surface of cities, a touristy ride through attractions and whatnots. But i still enjoyed getting a glimpse of how locals live, from the way they dress and walk, to the houses and shops they inhabit. The tour guides of course fed us loads of fun facts and themed stories, with the occasional historical tidbit. At the end of the day, I do not feel as though I have understood any of the great cities we have breezed through.

I breeze through Life not with Wind. - George Bernard Shaw

The propaganda was surely laid on thick, from the guide's resolute exhortation that we were 'people of China with Singaporean passports" to the incessant reminder of filial piety to our parents, our grandparents, whoever that could justify buying a new silk pillow, a kilo of green tea leaves for. I am proud to say that our group has bought it all and fulfilled every shop's sales quota along the way. My contribution to the table: $8 for a bottle of pearl cream that stun my eyes horribly after applying it like a facial mask. Well done.

I will never forget the impressive sales techniques practised on us, like we were little white mice rolling on a wheel. I have a true admiration for this art - it truly is an elaborate art - of putting thoughts into the minds of others. Kinda like Genjutsu, only better.

I especially like how we are so good at rationalizing things...religion and superstitions, all buttressed by half-truths and fallacies. Another thing that was rationalized - the Suzhou Industrial Park, gave me more food for thought. In the ever-present dilemma between development and conservation, we always talk about the benefit for the lives of the many versus the detriment of the few. In reality, it's a veil in disguise; very often it's not the majority oppressing the few, but rather the few with many oppressing the few with little.

It has still been a refreshing, enriching trip through and through, and I am grateful for this grad trip that has enabled me to reconnect with all my BCG coursemates. I pray the memories we have forged together stands strong like the Wall :)