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If i had another lifetime or so to spare, i'd spend it on Weiqi.

I like its absolute freedom, its vast universe where every step feels like discovering a new star. No other board game comes close in this aspect.

I can still remember the game i played in the Interhall Games, against a Vietnamese player! It was thoroughly thrilling and my heart throbbed with every move. It was the first time i felt moves flowing into my head, magically playing out themselves. An experience almost... automatic and surreal. The excitement of playing against a competitive stranger really makes me feel alive.

Well, haven't had that feeling for awhile. Jingyi (above) is better than me by quite a margin, damn lol. Hopefully i can spar more with him.

Dream

It felt terrible in my dream today.

I'd been taking a nap at the wooden benches corner, my head on the table. Woke up and felt like getting to the toilet to get a wash. Then i realised i hadn't woke up yet. So i tried to get up from my seat and walk over. Again i found myself still sleeping.

I did it for ten-odd times before i really managed to wake up, lasting about half an hour i think. It was scary losing control of my body and being trapped in my dream, yet conscious all the time.

I need to take a break.

:)




Glad she likes it. My first book for kids!

31.1.09

I haven't tasted such a bitter feeling of defeat for so long.

I cried. We all did.

Months and months of training, for this day. Countless friendlies fought on weekends, countless trainings under the sun.

And i finally know what the seniors mean, when they say they have been waiting for this day for so long. Years and years.

It's so painful.

But all of us must move on. There will always be even greater challenges awaiting us in the future. There will be bigger opponents, tougher fights everywhere in our lives. It's too early to give up.

We had been too overdependent on our seniors, who never failed to turn the tide for us. Now we must lead ourselves. i will have to grow and strengthen as well.

Yida and everyone gave a good closure to our softball year. We are, and still will be a team. A great team.

And someday when we look back on this softball finals on the 31st.Jan.09, it would have become a deeply precious memory for all of us.

...

There are some defeats more triumphant than victories.
Michel De Montaigne