Wednesday, a dark morning.
Listening to an old 933FM podcast, i was moved.
It felt so long ago...
when time moved ever so slowly,and emotions flowed freely,
and memories fell into place like a jigsaw puzzle.
The rain fell heavily. And the winds blew, the thunder stormed.
And the raindrops streamed across the windows...
Like it were all a dream.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
Wake-up
I screwed up in my studies.
I was complacent, I was lazy, I couldn't be bothered to practise for the test.
Whatever happened to last semester's humility in learning, passion for knowledge, questioning approach to things?
Now here comes a goddamn right wake-up call. I sure as hell deserve it.
I am stupid, and i am ignorant. You hear that? Don't you ever get the wrong idea again.
Just remember: I don't know anything now. Except that i know nothing.
I was complacent, I was lazy, I couldn't be bothered to practise for the test.
Whatever happened to last semester's humility in learning, passion for knowledge, questioning approach to things?
Now here comes a goddamn right wake-up call. I sure as hell deserve it.
I am stupid, and i am ignorant. You hear that? Don't you ever get the wrong idea again.
Just remember: I don't know anything now. Except that i know nothing.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Touched
It's been the end of yet another very eventful week, with quite a load of stress piled up...
... had my second lab test on wed. Didn't fare as well, couldn't handle one of the special cases. But i'm still pretty glad, since i only spent, say, a couple hours practising.
Instead, i spent quite a few nights until 3am in the morning, doing up our hall nite games with my blk subcom mates! It seemed quite crazy if you accounted in all our own commitments and schoolwork. But i'm absolutely grateful and encouraged that i have such a group of wonderful ppl to back me up.
WED NIGHT, we had our hall night, CANDYLICIOUS! which i personally thought was the most fun and successful thing we'd ever did so far. It went very smoothly and felt interesting all the way, and everyone looked very well entertained, ha.
Thurs morning, AB114 presentation... i had my first proper rehearsal while waiting for my turn! Totally didn't have time to memorise or prepare anything at all. So i went in with a blank slate, shaky voice and all. Luckily it didn't turn out that bad, i kept the class laughing with some funny slides haha. I think speaking loudly and maintaining a cheerful spirit dispels the nervousness pretty well.
At night, i suddenly felt like watching 'I Am Sam', so i got a couple of favours and set up a movie screening. Just the close few of us, JH and i, as well as Weichong, Brandon, Chongyu and Alvin.
Ha...and i felt really touched. Not just by the movie, which never fails to moisten my eyes. But i was innately very much cheered up when my 54 mates came to support me, even coming to watch a sappy movie together.
Somewhere along my journey as part of the JCRC, i seem to have forgotten why i'd run for blk manager in the first place. Not to bond the residents, not to provide a service to the hall, but before all of this, i simply wanted to share the kind of experience i've had with these guys. Along the way, as things got busier and i grew shallower in my contact with friends, i had almost lost this very important thought. Hall life can and should be a once-in-a-lifetime experience filled with great friendships and indelible memories. Because from the day i stepped into hall till now, i've been countlessly inspired and lifted by the wonderful individuals living in blk 54. Because right from day 1, it was never about the culture. It's about the people.
Sometimes i forget: it's not how many friends you have, but who you have as your friends. I feel blessed that both in hall and at school, i have close friends who will really, well, be there for me.
Just like in the past... but this time, i've learned to appreciate my friends, to not take them for granted. Because good friends are so hard to come by.
Well, i just wanted to say...
Thanks.
... had my second lab test on wed. Didn't fare as well, couldn't handle one of the special cases. But i'm still pretty glad, since i only spent, say, a couple hours practising.
Instead, i spent quite a few nights until 3am in the morning, doing up our hall nite games with my blk subcom mates! It seemed quite crazy if you accounted in all our own commitments and schoolwork. But i'm absolutely grateful and encouraged that i have such a group of wonderful ppl to back me up.
WED NIGHT, we had our hall night, CANDYLICIOUS! which i personally thought was the most fun and successful thing we'd ever did so far. It went very smoothly and felt interesting all the way, and everyone looked very well entertained, ha.
Thurs morning, AB114 presentation... i had my first proper rehearsal while waiting for my turn! Totally didn't have time to memorise or prepare anything at all. So i went in with a blank slate, shaky voice and all. Luckily it didn't turn out that bad, i kept the class laughing with some funny slides haha. I think speaking loudly and maintaining a cheerful spirit dispels the nervousness pretty well.
At night, i suddenly felt like watching 'I Am Sam', so i got a couple of favours and set up a movie screening. Just the close few of us, JH and i, as well as Weichong, Brandon, Chongyu and Alvin.
Ha...and i felt really touched. Not just by the movie, which never fails to moisten my eyes. But i was innately very much cheered up when my 54 mates came to support me, even coming to watch a sappy movie together.
Somewhere along my journey as part of the JCRC, i seem to have forgotten why i'd run for blk manager in the first place. Not to bond the residents, not to provide a service to the hall, but before all of this, i simply wanted to share the kind of experience i've had with these guys. Along the way, as things got busier and i grew shallower in my contact with friends, i had almost lost this very important thought. Hall life can and should be a once-in-a-lifetime experience filled with great friendships and indelible memories. Because from the day i stepped into hall till now, i've been countlessly inspired and lifted by the wonderful individuals living in blk 54. Because right from day 1, it was never about the culture. It's about the people.
Sometimes i forget: it's not how many friends you have, but who you have as your friends. I feel blessed that both in hall and at school, i have close friends who will really, well, be there for me.
Just like in the past... but this time, i've learned to appreciate my friends, to not take them for granted. Because good friends are so hard to come by.
Well, i just wanted to say...
Thanks.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
A rainbow after the storm
The past week couldn't have been more stressful for me, or for some of my friends.
Sometimes the busyness of life lets you forget your worries. Instead when you're left on a week of free time to complete everything, the stress just piles up and crashes down on you.
Guess that's what happened to alot of us. I spent two days working till six am for my accounting assignment, and one day till five am for programming. I wish someday group projects will stop teaching us the same thing: there will always be slackers, and you're damn well gonna fill up for them. I also hope someday for programming lab, i won't be looking for a needle in a haystack anymore. Or at least i'll have a match.
I think that night was one of the worst programming experiences for me. My frustration simply rose over the tipping point. I cursed to God, banged my fists sore against the table, threw the chair around. I couldn't sleep until i solved the problem myself.
So you can imagine that after this nerve-wracking week of punishment, i wasn't in the best of moods to go with YZ to the Club Rainbow Appreciation Tea.
But i'm glad i did.
It was a nice, cozy gathering with the rest of the Slimy Eyeball folks. Ben, PohLin, Ryan, Doris, Winnie, and the kids Zhexi, Rachel. Anyway, there were a couple of speeches made to thank us for our contributions etc, a cute lil' teddybear gift, our certificates, and a sumptuous buffet to boot. I wore myself out playing planes and catching with the boys. Guess i accumulated too much fatigue.
Were there only three kids? It felt more like an army! Ha... but Pohlin and the rest always attend to their every need. We went to Suntec, the koi pond, fountain etc. In the end i was the only one who was bushed out after walking all around...oops. They even wanted to leave me sleeping at the dinner table! Haha. Well, i'm just glad YZ and the other kids had fun with us.
And now i'm home, having accomplished none of my backdated work today. But it's been my most fruitful day of the week.
I almost forgot why i live.
But now i remember.
Nearing the end of his speech, our volunteer said,
And he said it so naturally and with such conviction, as though he'd fell in love with life the day he was born.
Sometimes, inspiration is simply about reminding ourselves, letting us recall what we already know in our hearts.
Ella Wheeler Wilcox
Sometimes the busyness of life lets you forget your worries. Instead when you're left on a week of free time to complete everything, the stress just piles up and crashes down on you.
Guess that's what happened to alot of us. I spent two days working till six am for my accounting assignment, and one day till five am for programming. I wish someday group projects will stop teaching us the same thing: there will always be slackers, and you're damn well gonna fill up for them. I also hope someday for programming lab, i won't be looking for a needle in a haystack anymore. Or at least i'll have a match.
I think that night was one of the worst programming experiences for me. My frustration simply rose over the tipping point. I cursed to God, banged my fists sore against the table, threw the chair around. I couldn't sleep until i solved the problem myself.
So you can imagine that after this nerve-wracking week of punishment, i wasn't in the best of moods to go with YZ to the Club Rainbow Appreciation Tea.
But i'm glad i did.
It was a nice, cozy gathering with the rest of the Slimy Eyeball folks. Ben, PohLin, Ryan, Doris, Winnie, and the kids Zhexi, Rachel. Anyway, there were a couple of speeches made to thank us for our contributions etc, a cute lil' teddybear gift, our certificates, and a sumptuous buffet to boot. I wore myself out playing planes and catching with the boys. Guess i accumulated too much fatigue.
Were there only three kids? It felt more like an army! Ha... but Pohlin and the rest always attend to their every need. We went to Suntec, the koi pond, fountain etc. In the end i was the only one who was bushed out after walking all around...oops. They even wanted to leave me sleeping at the dinner table! Haha. Well, i'm just glad YZ and the other kids had fun with us.
And now i'm home, having accomplished none of my backdated work today. But it's been my most fruitful day of the week.
I almost forgot why i live.
But now i remember.
Nearing the end of his speech, our volunteer said,
Many of us here have illnesses, some throughout our lives. But we still move on, we still keep going.
After all, Life is wonderful.
And he said it so naturally and with such conviction, as though he'd fell in love with life the day he was born.
Sometimes, inspiration is simply about reminding ourselves, letting us recall what we already know in our hearts.
The truest greatness lies in being kind, the truest wisdom in a happy mind.
Ella Wheeler Wilcox
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